Long Time Gone

weeding through my entire blog--there are almost 1400 posts! quality over quantity; getting rid of stuff that seems irrelevent or misplaced or superfluous or otherwise dissatisfactory. saw a great documentary on the History Channel today about Hitler's family. turns out there are still a few living in the US! they've also had a good series on the SS, but, most importantly, tomorrow night they start the entire " Band of Brothers " series! i never tire of watching it. literally! i'm 15 pounds lighter with muscle to boot. can't believe it. cutting sugar and flour really works. started bob tonight, just love it. i'd like to get the soundtrack. dentist on friday. i'd like to get my blog to about 1000 posts. quite time consuming. turning in is the answer, not out. growth, expansion, new life. it's about time. i am so stale, and i can hardly breathe in here. the window hasn't been open for ages, and i cannot feel fresh air on my face or see the out...

it must be. physical injuries heal with time, and so do emotional ones. emotions must be based in our biology somewhere, possible stored in cells and neurons and molecules, and since those are physical units, they heal over time in the same way a physical injury does. funny how physical injuries don't have quite the impact emotional ones can. probably because emotions must be located in the brain, while other injuries aren't. Stephen Colbert : "Nothing satisfies you [reporters]... everybody asks for personnel changes, so the White House has personnel changes. And then you write, 'oh, they're just rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic .' That is a terrible metaphor. This administration is not sinking, it is soaring! If anything, they are rearranging the deck chairs on the Hindenburg !"

Cooper has such composure when reporting from war zones. He's done it for so long that he seems quite at home while "under fire." It's also because of his personal tragedy and adversity that he knows just what to do under stress, i think. his brother committed suicide when anderson was in college . if he is gay (which is endlessly and excessively rumored), he knows a lot about adversity and self-acceptance. Abroad, he flips into a whole other mode in which he almost seems more comfortable than anchoring his show from the fancy CNN studio. He's meant to be in the field, and a born reporter. Here's a great article about his personal side. 10/11/06: The globetrotter. Anderson has arrived in London from the Middle East to cover the English bomb plot. He is so competent and unflappable in the field. Stephen Colbert : "Is Oregon Washington's Mexico or is it California's Canada?"

Many Americans cannot afford to take vacations. Yet, Bush takes month-long vacations. Why? Because he is not a leader dedicated to his people. Stephen Colbert: "I regret that I have but one half-hour to shout at my country."

Fox News makes almost everything sound like a serious development. Part of their alarmist approach to reporting, I guess. Stephen Colbert: “I don’t trust books. They’re all fact, no heart.”

Quote is taken from "Countdown With Keith Olbermann." Olbermann is kind of like a Stephen Colbert "Lite." [Yahoo News] Stephen Colbert: "By the way, before I get started, if anybody needs anything at their tables, speak slowly and clearly into your table numbers and somebody from the NSA will be right over with a cocktail." (at White House Correspondents' Dinner)

I am renouncing the pedestal upon which others have put me as well as their expectations. I need to figure out who I am, independent of what others need or want me to be--to begin my own self-excavation. Princess Diana no longer! Lady Di, perhaps (but only if I improve my table manners :)). I do not wish to be the image of others' projections. That's a piece of letting go of others' problems, their emotional entanglements, which are not my crosses to bear. If others can't deal with who I am or what I do, that's their burden, not mine. The Original Abdicator Stephen Colbert on the Geneva Conventions: "I think they're ADORABLE!"