I'm So Grouchy!

I hate my clothes. We're about to go out and I have nothing to wear.

I want a job and a wardrobe now. I am sick of this. It's so stupid.

I finally settled on black capri pants, an embroidered black camisole with strappy sandels and gold jewelry. frown. i went to banana republic today and got a black sheath dress that looks nice, and a black skirt to go w/my suit.

I also went to the men's department and picked out two really nice shirts that should go with lots of stuff.

Laurel and I went to the Cat Club tonight. Lots of fun, lots of dancing!

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