Today's Un-Lesson in Love: Needing to be Needed

I'm afraid that if other people don't need me, they won't stick around and they won't love me.

I don't like subconsciously trying to get others to depend on me, though. I don't want that.

I have boundary problems that make my life miserable sometimes. I'd like to work on them but I don't know how.

I really need support and answers and guidance these days, and don't know where to look.

I'm daunted by this summer.

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