Back and Forth, Up and Down

Seems to be my pattern, sometimes, and I'm not talking about bipolar.

I have a lot to learn, and it's frustrating, because I feel like I would have been out learning these things much sooner if it weren't for bipolar. I haven't always been held accountable for my actions, which bothers me, because I never learned important lessons that I now have to figure out on my own.

I'm really difficult to work with, sometimes, and I know that. It bothers me, but I never know how to fix it. I also know that I'm difficult to relate to sometimes, and even hard to be friends/in relationships with. It bothers me, but I do my best. I simply don't know what else to do.

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