Two Sides of My Own Coin

How is it that I know I'm likable on the one hand and feel so terribly insecure and unworthy on the other?

Today's not-so-guilty pleasure: Bon Jovi

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Chasing Tornadoes Is All I Have

I chase tornadoes. That's what I do. I've tried to have a normal life—wife, kids—but it wasn't for me. Huddling in a...

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