Long Day's Journey

a long day, but a satisfying one. i took less seroquel last night (what a difference 25 fewer mg of seroquel makes!) and laughed more today than i have in a very long time. feel more connected to other people, more cogent, more real. good choice. let's see if i can keep it up. i sat through four classes, which really isn't that hard, all you do is show up and listen, or participate. added my french class on the last day to add, it was a madhouse at the m center but my procedure was simple.

had a good conversation with mr. lawson, he likes my enthusiasm about the book review. i like him. he had a lime green shirt with a purple tie under his corduroy blazer. fabulous. he thumbs his nose ever so slightly at the system, just like dr w. phd's with a sense of humor are fabulous. had great conversations with lorian and brenna at gaylord's tonight, and with sara and lorian at lunch, too. a very good day. less seroquel is definitely a part of that. i was able to get up much more easily this morning, and functioning wasn't as hard. it's amazing how effortless functioning can be on less meds.

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