Gratitude List

It makes me sad that I haven't been able to appreciate any of my good qualities during the illness, during my youth. I love my hair because it reflects red glints in the sun or whenever light shines on it, and it has a beautiful texture and slight wave, even though it's STILL falling out in handfalls because of the medication.

Plus, I'm pretty attractive, in the sense that matters to me (anyone looking for a petite, busty blonde is out of luck, fortunately). I think I have classical features and lines and I like that very much. I think I'm very attractive, and I like that. I'm grateful for it. I don't want to take it for granted and I do want to enjoy it while I still have it. There's really no point dressing up around here, though. There's no one to impress, and I'm usually too tired/in too much of a rush to dress up for the heck of it. Plus, I'm really smart and my teachers like that. I'm a good thinker, funny, well-spoken, a decent writer, and I'm multi-faceted. I'm very lucky to be me, and I know it.

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